I am busting out of my fitness slump. I went for a one hour long walk with my dog Tessa today. Yeah Me!!! I am going to do something physical each day. Boy was it hard to start. Once I am out there I always feel good but starting is hard. I couldn't take the sloth-ness and self loathing anymore so instead of over analysing and fretting I just walked out the door. It sounds so simple when I think about it but it was a mountain in my mind.
We are still in winter's grip.
It has taken me a long time to get to this point but I have finally realized that I have to look at this journey as a glorious process full of ups and downs, highs and lows, realizations and brick walls.....
I am trying to stop and see the beauty in our freezing cold winter.
In the past when I was having a rough time sticking to my goals I would freeze and stop my blog. I guess part of me only wanted to show the glowing accomplishments. I still don't want to rant to wallow in my negativity but a healthy dose of reality is useful and productive. As my good friend Diane recently reminded me "How can you appreciate the "highs" in life if you never experience any "lows"?"
Just getting outside and walking does SO much for a person!
The blogs I read, particularly some of the really good ones have amazing women speaking their truth - the good the bad and the ugly. I don't want to be on or of my program or on or off blogging or on or off LIFE. This is it every choice, every lesson, every struggle, every joy are all wrapped up into one big messy package.
Messy is everywhere, life is messy, nature is messy we are not meant to be these perfect creatures.
In my life things don't tend to be one straight line to a goal. It's usually filled with a few curves and squiggles and loop de loops. But in the end I think if a person can be still and be present and grateful and breath then that journey is the journey that you are meant to take.
My journey has been full of ups and downs lately. I have been in a huge rut for the past few months. Ever since I have started working full time and we moved homes I have struggled to catch up and find time for to work out and eat healthy. I have not been working out for months and I was on a downward spiral of feeling depressed combined with a HUGE lack of motivation. But I have made the first step. I am committing to working out and I am going to speak my truth the whole truth - struggle and all.
Wow, love this color against the stark white.
I am going to let go of perfectionism.
The path less travelled....
I am going to be grateful.
Love this texture.
I am NOT going to beat myself up.
I am NOT going to compare myself to others and hide away from people.
I am going to be happy in the being not the doing or the having.
My Tessa! My faithful amazing puppy!
